...until the MCAT, and I can feel myself starting to lose steam... I woke up six hours ago, have yet to do any studying today. This wouldn't be a big deal if I had been knocking those AAMC tests out of the water, but I've consistently hit a couple of points below my target. There's still quite a bit I could do in terms of review and practice, but I simply haven't been doing it. Problem? Yes.
And I've started having dreams about failing the MCAT. Literally, failing--a total score of 16? That would probably be enough to get me instantly rejected from every med school in the country. It took me a while to remember that I couldn't have failed that miserably yet, since I have yet to take it. I have never been so relieved that the test is still looming in front of me.
Plus, as always, right before a big test, I've started thinking about and planning my future. Working out some details in my SoCal visit (this is actually legitimate, since it's only a week away; the rest are not), thinking way too much about senior year, wondering if I have enough time to squeeze another class into my schedule, thinking about ACF and small group, sifting through ideas for Doorways and wondering if I should start contacting the volunteer sites soon, wondering when and where I should start applying for jobs for my year off, who to get my letters of rec from, when I'm going to finish my PIR, whether or not I still have time to shadow during the school year, etc. etc. etc. Seriously NOT a good time. My mind feels so cluttered I don't even have space to retain the information I need for the MCAT. Help!
So that's pretty much all I've been up to lately. Now I'm off to go clean out my brain and pull myself out of this slump. Goodbye.
5 comments:
Just breathe. It all comes up cluttered, so all you can do is de-stress and prioritize the stuff that isn't looming until after the big day. You're not gonna get a 16 total, you didn't realize that you're gonna get 16 in each section. ;) Best of luck studying!
Good Luck! You can do it!
You should have someone incept everything you need to know for the MCAT in your dreams. Problem solved!
Steve's been giving good advice. I agree with prioritizing, and like he's been blogging, leave it up to God, who is much more capable! :)
it'll all seem cluttered and jumbled until then. steve's got it down pat. when you're done with it all, don't dwell on it, rejoice and have fun!!
go get yo' 45 (or 48 :)). jia you!
good luck melody! even if you arent blowing those practice tests out of the water, you'll rock the real one! :D you got this. don't let the pressure get to you. God's got your back
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